I am a 22 year old Christian male with same sex attraction(not in a gay lifestyle) and haven’t had counseling yet. My relationship with God has seemed like a mess and no connection for over year now. In fact, I have a fear that I wouldn’t go to heaven if I died. I also have a fear of rapture/tribulation that I’d be left behind. Could this SSA be a stumbling block in my walk with God? I have considered talking to a pastor about it.
From what you’ve said I believe it certainly could be a stumbling block. See your Pastor, get some prayer, and get back into fellowship with God. Read 1 John 1:9 and ask for His forgiveness. Then study 2 Cor. 10:3-5. You can’t lose your salvation but you could be in for a tough time if you don’t do something.