I have a question. I have prayed many times and asked the Lord to save me. However at times I feel like I must live right to be saved which I know is wrong but I don’t know how to stop. Plus I want to do things that I know is sin because it is fun even though I know it is wrong. Do you have any suggestions? Am I even saved?
Every believer experiences conflict of this sort. The feelings about living right come from the Holy Spirit prompting you to live in a way that pleases the Lord as a way of expressing your gratitude for the free gift of salvation. Paul called it living up to what we have already attained (Phil. 3:16).
The feelings about sin come from the fact that even though you are saved, the desire to sin hasn’t left you. This conflict will last through out your life. Paul also spoke of this (Romans 7:18-20.)
The important thing to remember is that salvation is by faith. In other words it depends on your belief in what Jesus did for you, (John 3:16) not on what you can do for yourself.
Jesus said, “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” (Matt. 7:7-8) This means everyone who sincerely asks for salvation receives it. Romans 10:9, Romans 10:13, Ephesians 2:8-9, Titus 3:4-7 all confirm that if you’ve sincerely asked the Lord to save you, then He has done so.