I can’t seem to have faith that I am truly saved. Whenever something happens that I think I might die ( illness, near misses, etc.) I panic and become unsure if I’m really saved. I start asking myself if I did everything right in order to be saved because it is grace through faith and I seem to lack faith. Does this frequent doubting of my faith mean I’m not saved?
It’s true that Ephesians 2:8-9 tells us we are saved by grace through faith. But then it says the faith is not of ourselves, it’s a gift from God. That’s how Jesus could say that everyone who asks receives (Matt.7:7) and Paul could say that everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved (Romans 10:13). If you believe that Jesus died for your sins and rose again on the third day and have asked Him to save you then He has and He has also given you the faith to believe it. Oddly enough the fact that you’re worried about not being saved is evidence that you are, because only believers understand what it means to be an unbeliever.
Therefore your doubts are not from a lack of faith, they are from a lack of knowledge. The enemy has planted seeds of doubt in your mind and you lack the knowledge of God’s word necessary to uproot them. Paul described this as having a zeal for God that is not based on knowledge (Romans 10:2). The remedy for this is to embark on a search for the Scriptures you can use to defend your belief that you are saved and to overcome your doubts. This will have the added benefit of increasing your faith, because Paul also said faith comes through hearing God’s word (Romans 10:17). When you read, your mind “hears” what you are reading.
Matt. 7:7-8, John 3:16, John 6:28-29, Romans 10:9, 2 Cor. 1:21-22, Ephesians 1:13-14, Ephes. 2:8-9, Titus 3:4-7 are good places to begin your search.