Sometimes before I go to sleep at night, I imagine a God who is absolutely fair and loving to all his creation equally,with no hint of hatred, or jealousy, condemnation, etc. The kind of God who “truly” loves his creation, and sees to it that we have the best of what life has to offer, and that it happens every day, forever. I imagine a God who created everyone equally with one language and one tone of skin, where every man and woman is beautiful with no flaws, whether physical, mental, or emotional. I dream that God would appear to me in person and honestly show himself to me(in real life,not by faith) and offer to take me to be in His awesome world with Him. Believe me, I would gladly depart from this world to start a new life of inexpressible joy in His world. Is it a sin to fantasize like this?
Fantasizing like this is is not a sin because what you fantasize about is experiencing the true nature of God. Adam and Eve found life with Him to be this way before sin entered the world, and in the Millennium the Church will find life with Him to be this way as well.
In the meantime, things are different because Satan introduced sin into the world and contaminated God’s perfect creation. After that happened, the relationship between God and man had to change. But He sent His son to die for our sins so that one day we can experience life with God the way you’ve described it once again. And this time no one can mess it up and it will last forever.
Some call this the Good News and others describe it as our Blessed Assurance. But no matter what it’s called your fantasy will soon become reality for every believer.
And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away” (Rev. 21:3-4)