I consider myself saved and a firm believer in the sacrifice of Christ, yet I’m still continually nagged by feelings of doubt. I can’t really describe what it is that’s bothering me, but I realize it has something to do with me not fully grasping the centrality of Jesus in God’s plan for salvation.
I pray that I would “get it”, but I wonder if I’m over analyzing things, relying too heavily on myself and dwelling on my doubts. I feel nudged by the Holy Spirit, but I’m not really sure what it is I should be praying for. I desire a stronger faith but I seem to be at a major roadblock.
I think you’ve figured it out. It sounds like your natural analytical style be the main obstacle.
All this presents a great opportunity for you to draw closer to your Lord. If you’re not already doing so, you might try visiting some churches where the worship is more on the exuberant side, where people feel free to express their emotion in praising God. Some congregations emphasize praise more than others, and you probably have friends who can steer you toward them. Being among worshipers you don’t know, and seeing them freely express their praises to God might help you feel more comfortable expressing yours. (I’m not suggesting that you change churches, only that you visit some others now and then.) You might also begin listening to more Christian praise music when you’re alone.
But the most important thing to do is take these concerns to prayer and ask the Lord to release the passion He has already placed in your heart for Him. The Lord desires the same kind of relationship with you as you would like with Him. Keep that in mind and ask Him to help you develop it.