I have kidney and pancreas failure, and have been on dialysis for 2.5 years now. We have been praying for healing for years, even before it got to the dialysis stage. My prayer is that even if its only a month before the Rapture and that is all the time I have as a ‘well’ person, I still ask for it, partly because its horrible to be sick all the time, and partly because I think it would be a tremendous witness in the power of our Lord to go from having barely any kidney function, and no pancreatic function, to all of a sudden being as healthy as any healthy person is. I have been blessed beyond belief with my faith, my husband, and finances. But this decaying body is always hanging over my head, and its seems like each month we are here on this earth it gets worse and worse. I guess the question is, since my motives aren’t 100% please-heal-me-so-I-can-be-a-witness and honestly more geared towards wanting to be healthy even for a short time, will this negate my prayers?
My favorite Bible verse is Psalm 37:4, which says, “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desire of your heart.” One meaning of the Hebrew word translated “delight” is to be glad in anything. In that sense its compatible with Phil. 4:4-7 which says,
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
To me Psalm 37:4 means when we’re glad in any situation we find ourselves in, He will place in our heart the things He wants us to desire and then He will give them to us.
I suggest you put this whole situation in the Lord’s hands, leave the outcome to Him, and look for ways to rejoice in everything you have while continuing to ask for everything you want. Your gentleness will be ever more obvious, and God’s peace will come to you in such abundance that it will surpass your ability to comprehend it. Above all, remember that it’s His desire that you be healed.