I can’t seem to find my defining moment as to when I became saved. A lot of people say that there has to be a “ah ha” moment. I am 53 years old and have really been growing closer and closer to the Lord the past 10 years. I never ever doubted that there was a Jesus, God’s only son or that he died on the cross and I gave my life to Him in my teens. But now I can’t pinpoint the time I came to know the truth and how it happened. It’s like I just slowly grew into the truth. Can that be? Sometimes I get scared that maybe I’m not really saved. Please help me understand this.
It’s not necessary to have a so-called defining moment, and I’ve always suspected that not everyone who claims to have had one really did. Don’t worry about it. If you sincerely asked the Lord to save you then He did, whether you can remember exactly when it happened or not, because everyone who asks receives (Matt. 7:7-8). It’s a promise from the one who gave His life to make it so, and that matters much more than whether it was a memorable experience for you.
It sounds like you’ve really been maturing in the Lord over the last few years, so maybe the enemy is trying to make you doubt yourself. Don’t let him. Resist him and he’ll flee from you (James 4:7).