I have asked The Lord everyday to come into my heart and forgive me me of all my sins, but I’m a drunk. I cry out and ask for his forgiveness as my guilt has a tight grip on me but can’t stop drinking. I let him down all the time I am so scared that He will leave me like this. Jesus help me please.
The Bible is clear in identifying drunkenness as a sin, even going so far as to advise other believers not to associate with such a person (1 Cor. 5:11). But the Bible is also clear in saying that when Jesus went to the cross He took all our sins with Him and forgave them there (Colossians 2:13-14). Once we come to the Lord in faith and ask to be forgiven, the Holy Spirit comes to dwell within us as a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance (Ephes. 1:13-14) and we become a new creation (2 Cor. 5:17) in His sight. From that point on He sees our sins as coming from our sinful nature, and not from us (Romans 7:18-20). He can do this because by His once for all time sacrifice, Jesus has made us perfect forever (Hebrews 10:12-14) and He will never drive us away (John 6:38-40), or leave us (Matt. 28:20). Don’t take my word for this. Look up these verses and read them for yourself.
As long as you continue drinking to excess, you will live a guilt ridden, defeated life and will fail to achieve the freedom and fulfillment He came to give you. But you do not ever have to doubt the Lord’s faithfulness to His promise to save you, because once you are in His and His Father’s hands no one can snatch you away (John 10:27-30). No one includes you.
Asking for His forgiveness is good, and you should continue to do so. But you should also ask Him to deliver you from this bondage to alcohol, and then seek out a Church sponsored, Christ centered program to assist you. Jesus wants you to be free, and as soon as you decide you want this too, He’ll be right there with you every step of the way.