I really feel uncomfortable in all the churches I’ve attended bar one when I lived in London. I don’t attend anymore as I work long hrs and also have a health problem that can be very painful and very draining. When I get home at night after working I just want to sit in front of the TV and relax. Is this wrong as a Christian to be spending more time on work, TV, and family than with the Lord? I’m worried that I’ll be one to whom He says. “I never knew you.” I used to be on fire for the Lord. What’s wrong with me?
What’s wrong is, like many others you’ve let your priorities get out of order. The Lord should be number one in a believer’s life. That doesn’t mean He should always get most of your time, but He should always get the best of your time. The good thing is you’re concerned about this. It means He’s calling you back. James 4:8 says when we draw near to Him He will draw near to us.
You don’t need to attend a church to spend time with the Lord, especially if you aren’t satisfied with any of the choices available to you. There are ways to spend meaningful time with the Lord outside of Church. You could join a fellowship group or Bible study, and devote some personal time to reading His word and praying. By doing these things you will begin to feel better.
If you’re not at your best when you get home at night, try meeting with Him first thing in the morning, or on your lunch break. If you can’t find a time that works for you, it means He’s really not as important to you as He used to be and that’s why the fire is going out.
But even so, if you’re born again, He’s never going to tell you He never knew you, because the Holy Spirit is sealed in your heart as a deposit guaranteeing your inheritance (Ephes. 1:13-14).