I’m just wondering how a person can get through life as a Christian with little to nothing and be ok watching other Christians get dumped with blessings. Bear with me; I’m still a baby Christian. I’m just having a hard time dealing with illness and poverty, unemployment, troubles marriage etc, but I look around me and see so many of my Christian friends so fulfilled… good jobs, stable income, loving homes.. It makes me wonder what I am doing wrong.. I won’t lie either.. It also upsets me that I have to wait until Heaven, yet other people are so blessed in this life and will continue to be blessed in the next. Am I not seeing these blessings? Am I not even being blessed? Is it because my spouse is not a believer?
Forgive me for saying this, but it sounds like you don’t believe the Lord is being fair with you. Do you think saving you from eternal damnation was not enough, since others seem to be getting much more? Jesus didn’t have to die for you and He doesn’t owe you any blessings. They come to us because of the gratitude we feel for what we’ve already been given. Typically new believers are the most joy filled people on the face of the Earth and are so thrilled to be saved their feet barely touch the ground. Maybe your pastor or a close friend who’s been a Christian for a while could help you understand why you feel this way.