I am a totally born again, sold out to God Christian. I know in my heart that Jesus is coming back soon. I dream about being able to boldly witness to the many people that God puts on my heart but when the time comes I just lose courage. So what I do is pray for their salvation instead. I am so discouraged about this. I do not want to stand before the Lord and have Him say that since I was ashamed of Him, he is ashamed of me. I would appreciate your counsel and prayers about this.
I think the first thing for you to do is be sure the Lord has called you to evangelize. It may be that your gift is really intercession, which is the praying that you’re intuitively doing. It’s also an effective method for bringing people to the Lord. Paul said we have different gifts according to the grace given us (Romans 12:6). The Lord doesn’t expect any of us to do everything, just those things He’s gifted us to do. And when He calls us to do something, we can be sure He will empower us to do it, because also said, “Apart from Me you can do nothing” (John 15:5).
If you feel that God has called you to evangelize, then keep asking Him for the strength and courage to do so. In the meantime, continue to pray for the people the Lord puts on your heart. Be patient, and don’t worry. You may discover that you’re already doing exactly what He wants you to do. And above all, understand that the Lord is not ashamed of you, He thinks you’re perfect.
But when this priest had offered for all time one sacrifice for sins, he sat down at the right hand of God, and since that time he waits for his enemies to be made his footstool. For by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy (Hebrews 10:12-14).